Update

I'm just chug-a-lugging along over here.

My business is the busiest it's been in years, and I was totally unprepared for it and am so far behind I don't know how I'll ever catch back up...but I'm so thankful for it and for the money it's allowing me to put away to help pay for this wedding. Speaking of weddings...

The city has been chosen, San Francisco, and now with the help of our wedding planner, we've narrowed the venue down to two incredible locations, both outdoors with a view of the Golden Gate bridge. The date: 9-10-11...10 months from now. What could quite possibly be the longest 10 months of my life. I'm so ready to have this man as my husband, and these kids are so ready to have him as stepdad. Everything is beyond amazing. Even the ex situation worked itself out pretty nicely. (he agreed to stop putting my youngest in the middle of the situation)

It's a strange thing to be planning a wedding while raising three kids. Sometimes it feels a little, ummm....ridiculous. It's like, when you get married the first time, it is the biggest day of your life, and you don't know that anything will ever be that amazing. And then you have children and it makes something like a wedding seems so trivial and puts your entire life into perspective. I don't care about the perfect invitations or the perfect dress or decor or flowers. I just want to have a ceremony that does our union justice...this perfect union of my family with him. So when the wedding planner asks me about caterers and cakes and all that stuff, it just makes me wanna laugh. I don't care. (i'm kind of a bridezilla just because I'm so NOT a bridezilla) The thought of trying on wedding dresses after 3 children just seems funny. Having my 4 and 7 year old daughters actually there to help me choose... I don't know. Funny! (but I'm doing it anyways) Not to mention, who has time to pick flowers and caterers and dresses while raising kids anyways? There's a reason they do it in the opposite order!!!

Fitness and nutrition has been on my mind a lot lately. I'm always thinking about the next way I'm going to push myself and come up with new goals for myself. Right now I'm working out 5-6 days a week- running 3x a week, and the other 2-3 days doing high intensity interval training and power circuit training with weights. I absolutely love it. I have some sort of mystery illness going on with my stomach and the days that it makes me miss working out, I feel depressed and weak. I have come to *need* my workouts so much. My new goal is to move that attitude over into my diet and nutrition. I still struggle with sticking to clean eating. I have done all the reading and research and know exactly how horrible sugar and processed foods are for you, but on the weekends or at parties when they are put in front of me I just cannot resist. My goal is to eat all natural foods (lean meats, whole grains, fruits, veggies, fats) 90% of the time and splurge 2 meals on the weekends. Having this stomach issue has made it really tough. (getting that checked out at the dr tomorrow)

Other than that life is busy and wonderful and chaotic just the way it should be.