I am living a dream.
If you had asked me years ago to design my perfect life, what I am living now is EXACTLY what I would have planned.
This is not by accident.
I think, in my years of struggle, darkness, triumph, and rebirth, that I have stumbled upon many "secrets of life" that I have been able to apply with great success.
Obviously, this has not been easy. Anyone who has been reading this diary for the past 4 years knows that.
But "there's beauty in the breakdown". And sometimes I think that the deeper into darkness we fall, the deeper engrained the lessons are that come from it.
I'm currently "working" my dream job, for the second time in my life. I'm so passionate about my new career that not one minute of it feels like work. I am excited to wake up each morning and create something new, excited to help others and help myself in the process. I am working alongside my life partner, and together we are unstoppable. We watch our business grow by leaps and bounds each day, and opportunities consistently fall into our laps that leave us humbled and grateful.
I have my kids 90% of the time now. My ex husband has decided that he
could not afford to take care of them (eye roll) and now they are
sleeping in their own rooms, in comfortable beds, eating healthy food,
being nurtured and cared for, and living with a healthy relationship
role model 90% of the time. I never could have imagined this would
happen but I wanted it for them, and when the opportunity arose, I took it.
I have learned the practice of daily meditation. I even attended a meditation
class and had to laugh because it felt like church. I'm in touch now
with the big picture of spirituality, even though I have abandoned all
religion and my former ideas of what spirituality was.
I'm watching every dream I've ever wished for come true, one by one. I've mastered the process of asking, working, thinking, and receiving. It works.
Through meditation I have conquered anxiety, fear, and depression. I'm currently weaning off my anti-depressants.
I've come to truly understand the power of thoughts as well as the power of NOT thinking, and I'm learning to use that.
I'm learning how the adventurous, successful, happy people out there bridge the gap between wanting something and getting it.
I've learned that happiness and peace is attainable every single day when you learn to see the good that is already in front of you and feel grateful for it.
I've learned that if I tune out all the excess "crap"-clutter, most of social media, drama, news, gossip, shopping just to shop, doing things just because everyone else is, and focus on just the important things--that I am freeing up my time for all that is important to me, working only hours a week with a big return, freeing up income for priorities like travel, and just living a stress-free life.
So that's the latest with me. More amazing things to come.