After my blog post last week I cried to Mr. Wonderful about everything. We had a great talk and came up with some solutions, really looked at my schedule. He even asked me to make him a list of all the things he could help with (there's a reason why he has his nickname)
Right now my number 1 priority is getting caught back up on work and getting some marketing going. I actually started to think about getting a part time job, not because I need one yet, but because I was so tired of having all the responsibility on my head, not just emotional but financial. And running a business means not always knowing when the $$ is coming in. It also means twice as much federal taxes and never, ever truly leaving your work anywhere else. In that moment of desperation, it sounded so much better than what I do now. But Mr. Wonderful (and I knew it deep down) reminded me of why I quit that world in the first place 6 years ago to start this business, and how many people dream of doing it. I do need that reminder sometimes.
So I have set work hours again, and am thinking about finding a mother's helper for after school like someone suggested in the comments. I'm running my neighborhood instead of the gym, which cuts my gym time down to just 3 days a week instead of 6. I've increased the kids' chores to include a lot of the things I was doing myself after they went to bed, like putting away their own laundry and clearing the dishes/table. (who knew they could do that and do it well!) My 7 year old has even been helping me cook.
But the thing is, not much is going to change. I'm a single mom. I have three kids. I own a business. I'm in a relationship. It's gonna be tough. I have to keep my eye on the prize, and with the help of good friends and a supportive partner, I can get through these OMG HOW AM I GOING TO DO THIS moments (because there are going to be many).