The High and the Low

This weekend was...amazing. I hate that I use that word so much, because I feel like it takes away the effect of it...but I can't come up with a word strong enough to describe the weekend I had with my girls.

I seriously lost three pounds this weekend. I think it was from laughing.

We laughed, we cried (I cried.) We ate, we drank, we danced (two of us did, LOL), we did each other's hair, we shared clothes, we shopped, we supported, we cheered, we debated.

As I prepare for my father's surgery tomorrow, the timing of this weekend seems so perfect. Everytime I think of this weekend, it's like an instant shot of Happy. Like my own natural anti-depressant. Today when I started to panic? I pictured my friend Amy and I standing outside a bar, dancing with no inhibitions while our friends busted us with a picture. Tomorrow when I am in the waiting room, no doubt I will be remembering the four of us sitting on the stairs, trying to get our friend's six year old son to take our picture with her iphone, cracking up so much that we couldn't breathe in between takes. It takes the edge off.

Tomorrow AM my Dad goes in first thing, I will be there with him as will my brother and sister in law. The surgery begins around 7, and will last 6-7 hours. I think it will likely be one of the toughest things I have ever been through, just waiting there while my father's life is completely in someone else's hands. That requires a ton of faith and trust...not exactly my strong points here lately.

Friends and family are coming out in droves to the hospital to support us, and I am so incredibly grateful. I have never felt LESS alone before, which is something I never would have imagined during a divorce. I am surrounded by so much positivity, and I can feel it keeping me from flipping out.

If you are the praying kind please keep my Dad in your prayers and thoughts tomorrow. I love him so much and although I know in my heart he will be ok, tomorrow will be the longest day of my life. And very difficult to see someone I look up to so much put in such a vulnerable, scary place.

Will try to update as soon as I can.